sitting with me and mine, all wrapped up in a bottle of wine, little we can do, we gonna see it through somehow

Got on the information superhighway here in PS & figured I’d do a mini post. Snagged a badass local artist wedding gift for my Canuck Studies classmate & bride-to-be this weekend. Going off-the-grid of the bridal registry for this one, figured I chipped away at the list for the shower & I wanted something a big more crafty for the big day & the next new place….Hope you like it, Annie!

Decided to head back to the big smoke early (tomorrow) to get the ducks in line for the next couple of weekends of obligation fulfillment…Had some QT with Moms looking up medical stuff (only the PG-13 pages) about her condition & treatment & possibilities….I think that in a nerdy schoolteacher way it relieved her to read about it in a text that was peppered with ‘very common’ and ‘routine procedure’. means more on the web than coming out of your Dr’s mouth, I guess.

Good & fun obs include working on the Pickups campaign! I’m psyched to work on this & can’t wait to get the flyers out….I think that I might snag some Jason Collet tix for Friday’s show @ the Mod Club if they’re not prohibatively dispendieux. Also wanna get back to where I once belonged to meet Rob & help with the apt. hunting (cue Mary margaret O’Hara soundtrack).

On that note, need to pry masself away from the computer - enjoyed unearthing old clothes & just-as-old Mp3s on this iMac….More Dino Jr. nostalgia…sweet!

You have no idea how really broke I am…


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I have been blog-humbled in spades. not only am I guilty of slacking off & not writing as much as my previous standards….I am completely in awe of the wicked prose featured in this girl’s diary, thanks to the NYTimes’ weekend style section - stephanieklien.blogs.com . Fak. Could one woman be so many others’ soul mate or what? I know that all the haters are popping out of the woodwork now that she’s parlayed the site into an optioned film & book, etc…but c’mon, she’s the real effin’ deal - certainly not the Carrie Bradshaw neophite that many are comparing her to!

In other humbling news - the ‘Schwa bites back to all the hipster TO transplant hoity toities with their disparaging remarks for the 905-ers (or version of ‘bridge & tunnel’ for the nOntarians). Soundscapes was PACKED last night for the Cuff the Duke CD Release in-store performance (cufftheduke.com) - disgusting-giving-away-free-water-in-the-hopes-of-averting-a-lawsuit hot. If they hadn’t just been playing new songs that nobody knew & asked for requests I wouldda screamed ‘Air Conditioning for Chrissakes!’.

But all in all - a free gig, good banter, fun people watching, running into ex-co-workers & enjoying the more serious & still twangy tunes - I have never craved a post-gig beer so much in my entire life. Good nostaliga-filled atmosphere across the street at Southside Louis’ - but no Bo Brady look-alike bartender anymore. Ahh boo. I guess it was never meant to be - but what kind of guy keeps that style of facial hair when they know that they are a spitting image for a two-decade-long soap hunk? bizarre.

Shouldn’t be blogging at all - typing up the phone line whilst I need to phone around for promo material quotes for the Pickups project…procrastinating me….

Tomorrow I’ll be shuttling back to the hometown with the Beau in tow. My Dad’s spending today with his more than a handful Mother in Markham & we’re trekking it back together - no doubt a trip fueled by cathartic jokes about the insane quasi-logic that guides the lady’s brutal matriarchical reign over him & whoever else is withing mumbling range. Season II Sopranos is a lesson for us all…or true catharsis. Shout outs to people that will finally be getting some care packages in the mail…I am a putz for not putting out sooner (If I had a nickel…) & hope to finish this before I depart for the Hoot. Anywhoo I’ll sign off now for what will probably be awhile….

Peace
meegs

Worlds converge, wild times - not a lyric, just life


Well - a wooly, bully weekend fo’shizzle.

First things first - the Canuck indie scene is getting a myriad of odd NYC press of lates. Heads up for the cute ‘night out’ piece on Feist in Sun NY Times with Patrick Daughters (or Yeah, Yeah, Yeahs vid fame). Must address the sad, misguided tale of woe that befell BSS producer whilst shopping for….decriminalized-in-Canada wares in Washington Square park (I know, too cliche for even Lonely Planet readers to fall for…). Seems like he hadn’t the gritty street smarts (hasn’t everybody seen Larry Clark’s ‘Kids’ already? C’mon people - “I have no legs, clink, clink, clink, clink…”) & ended up getting busted, beaten & now undertaking possible litigation vs. NYC’s finest. Ahh boo. Not that I’m overly sympathetic to the Force…but…c’mon Washington Square Park? You’re a world-renowned producer…why pick up take-out when you should be turning away excess or paying for premium delivery?

I guess dropping the ‘misguided’ is subliminal plug for what will be an amazing CD Release Par-tay & launch on newly minted (http://thepickups.ca/) label of Martin - Misguided Records. Shamefully ‘Shipbuilding’ was taken (ahem. & sleeping still). Anywhoo - we had a great brunch at Sneaky Dee’s on Sunday (which also happens to be the location of the CD Release Party that y’all are invited too, what a coincidink)mulling over the shameless stretch of time where we fully court the press & rally the wagons to see this album off with a bang. Serendipitously ran into PSHS alum & old neighbour from the ‘hood who is doing hella good in the city as an event planner (SO hard not to grovel for release party help)& is also planning a trip back home for the long weekend…amazing how many PS’ers I run into these days…

In complete 180 from the down-home deep-fried goodness of the Pickups - I ran into AGAIN that lil’ no-talent Billy Talent frontman @ TD this a.m….only to see him drive away in a goddamned new BMW…’Try Honesty’ my ass you yuppie prick. ugh.

So the final decision is to go back to PS on Thurs, after the Natasha Bedingfield Sony/BMG showcase @ Revival on Wed night…should be good if you like R&B & hooky-hits - c’mon out. The results from my Mom’s never-ending hospital saga are ‘inconclusive’ - which means that she’s trekking it back to TO again in October for more intrusive & laser-filled poopy times. fak.

On that note - I’ll leave you with apt sites to visit & best wishes for a productive work week - I’m tackling a MASSIVE pre-OLIP reading list that has been assigned to us by the program’s director….feel an undergrad flashback coming on…man, time to break out that copy card & start griping about wasting paper + money again! At least I can spend some QT watching Studio Two with the Moms to take her mind off things….

http://www.nytimes.com/2005/07/24/fashion/sundaystyles/24nite.html - good feeling
http://pitchforkmedia.com/news/05-07/19.shtml - bad feeling
http://thepickups.ca/ - good feeling
http://billytalent.com/bt_flash.html - bad feeling

peace
meegs

& props to Ruven for hosting a low-key, just-right nite on Saturday…that hit the spot…especially the Zappa

I found a box, untethered and true, Possession it understood


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Well, I dunno if you can call it memory lane, but I strolled down some metaphysical & musical soundscape last night that I am finding difficult to describe.

For the record, last night’s Dinosaur Jr. concert was at least in the top three of loudest shows ever (QOTSA & DFA 1979 are up there, too). Thanks to my bud from AFI (& one of many grateful ‘Friend of Peg’ introductions), Kareem, for giving me an Amoeba Records stash-holding keychain that now houses my precious earplugs! Because of you I am not suffering the ringing that is no doubt plaguing the entire unprotected audience this morn (well, afternoon….).

I had a hella blast, J. Mascis is still on top of his game as far as musicianship & guitar work goes. He reminds me why my first boyfriend (as if it were a collectible action doll) would spend hours practising arpeggiated riffs over & over & over again. Dino Jr. was one of those bands that brought a new sound, heightened tightness, distortion &obtuse lyrics to a time in music that sucked ass - only to get ripped off by Cliffs-notes power-chording grunge gonzos on the verge of ‘Edge’ radio station stardom & flannelled fanbases.

Lou was as cool as ever & downed some hard booze despite his anitbotic cocktail (Happy B-day, Lou!).
Many audience members were calling out his name or asking for Sebadoh songs (which is a pretty lame-ass thing to do…considering that people have been whining about getting this reunion together for how long & then when it finally happens they harass the band for songs that Maskis didn’t have a part in? WTF?)

In a typical post-Pheonix review, I will complain about the early show b.s….but had it not been for the expected heard-out of aging skaters & wanna-be members of Citizen Dick I wouldn’t have had an equally amazing night of patio bliss with MC, Gwen & her pals at the Cadillac Lounge. Good times, good conversation, music-memories, gossip, laughs, and amazing Parkdale atmosphere, food & bar staff. Hats off to this gem of a bar (where I took the Beau for his first burlesque gig!) without pretention but full of laid-back class (”& they got a pool table, too!”).

Anyway, I guess the most difficult thing to describe is how attending that show was, in many ways, exactly like seeing Shonen Knife during SXSW. These are two bands that were just larger than life - obviously not because of their image or attitudes, but because I got into them long before I really understood much about what music (let alone ‘good’ music) was or meant. I just loved these two bands for the sake of loving different no-hit-single music when I was 12 & 13.

Had you told the never-been-kissed Egyptian-bangs & braces-wearing pudgy 7th grader wearing oversized flannel shirts & trying desperatly to fly beneath the tyrannical girl-politics radar that in 13 years she would be seeing free Dino Jr & Shonen Knife gigs, “getting” the music, turning away jackass guitar jock dudes for the company of strong self-assured & savvy women, I would’ve snorted Orange Soda up thru my honker & returned to memorizing minutia gathered in Rolling Stone & Spin mags.

In a pathetically comforting way, experiencing something that you thought (or hoped or projected) was cool when you were so young & insecure brings your angsty years to some type of calming close - an entirely internal & inconsequential resolution for people you knew back in the day, but an amazing life-bookend to round out over ten years of being immersed in music & how you have come to define yourself; by the one art form that enriches your life and amplifies good memories & triggers great ones.

Enough Wonder Years bullshit.
Peace
meegs

‘Cause I don’t understand, won’t you tell me please, what’s the master plan?


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…And now for something completely different. Going against the grain of my quasi Quaker-WASP upbringing, I writhe & wriggle masself out of my dead-end retail circle of hell - only to have House of Blues party & concert employment offers, & numerous free concert tix awaiting me within hours.

Since my last post - I have endured one of my last UO shifts, finally seen Andy’s teriff band, Spitfires&Mayflowers (see photo & this week’s NOW’s great write-up) & snagged the new dewel-decimeled CD, scored free K-OS tix for last night’s show (pure serindipity, not schmoozing) & tomorrow’s Dinosaur Jr. reunion nostalgia-fest…received offers to work HOB gigs including the big-ass Green Day @ Molson Park, et cetera, et cetera.

Besides this list of non-accomplishments & resignations…I am proud to say tht I am taking ‘off’ the last week-ish of July to spend some QT with the Moms in the hometown. I am also proud to note that The Big Three, my bud, Jeff’s band is filming their first video on Thursday - hurrah! if you wanna be part of the crowd & part of music video infamy, contact me & we’ll learn the lyrics to ‘you’ve gotta roll’ together….

Tonight is Annie’s batch party - maybe work & other TO highlights - the out of work countdown begins & on to bigger &brighter things hopefully with the HOB!

Peace
Meegs

And the devil will drag you under, by the bright lapels of your checkered coat


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Well, there are a lot of undescribed eventful events that have gone down throughout & since the past couple of postings. I have a TON of freetime on my hands - I even had a scheduled shift shuffled to an ‘on call’ then a ‘cancel’ today. I think that the regime is not happy about my recent gallavanting & maybe trying to oust me via annoyances such as these (Hey, it’s not paranoia if they’re really out to get you, riiight?). Lord knows that when I do need an ‘on call’ kiboshed - like this Saturday for Annie’s batchelorette dinner & bar nite, it just won’t happen. Murphy’s law. So where to begin divulging….A recent theme that I can use to weave through a lot of contempo events is the role of the bullshit-caller in my life of lates.

I just had my 8-week review at the gym with my trainer this week & I was very, very nervous about going in & having him check on my progress….namely my goal to reduce my BMI score, composition, etc. So, completely throwing off my assessment of him as the ‘nice, sweet, soft-spoken foreign trainer’…this Turkish tyrant calls’em like he sees’em & says that my progress is good - cardio & muscle tone is better - but that he’s kind of unimpressed that I tote a New Yorker or Ms. along with me every time I work out. Burn. So yeah, he knows that I’m not exactly killing masself to get into good shape, so long as I’m enjoying Andy Berkawitz & Sasha Frere-Jones on my elliptical turns….He challenged me to finally re-start (for the umpteenth time) running….which I did today & I am feeling good in that feeling exhausted kind of way. On top of that he upped the ante on all my weights program & I don’t even want to know what pretzel-state I will be in tomorrow a.m….

Anywhoo, we have been making the most of the Beau’s free-time & walking around TO, enjoying Gregg’s Ice Cream (make an effort to ensure that Toshi got some in his belly before he left, too), the Globe, parks, shade & especially - air conditioning….God, I know it’s terrible & I’m not using a dryer or other unnecessary electrical appliances as some sort of environmental penance or karmic contribution…but gawd, my days in TX got me hooked on that sweet freon stuff…

Other people that have called bullshit on me this week include - the Mom - now in the motor city enjoying (ha!…enduring) the All-Star week with my Dad & his BF & his BF’s mom (my pal, Mrs. D). I was thinking about it a lot after watching ‘Rock School’ at the Royal (the BEST of the rep theatres in TO based on size,. cleanliness & malaise-stricken employees)…I had little sympathy for that Eeyore teen (what a louse I am..) & completely identified with the frazzled instructor, Mark….I cannot count how many times my piano teacher brought me to tears for not practising enough or correctly…The sad fact is that kids are weasels & will do anything to get out of anything - if you call them on their bullshit, they can accomplish much more than expected….I only regret that MY music teacher didn’t learn me Zappa!!!

Last night was as sweltering as ever..but we braved the heat (& infamous TO cheapniks) to attend the Dundas Square screening of Guys & Dolls….Three questions arose - will 21st C straight men ever learn to appreciate the modern musical? How did the mighty Brando fall so low as to lap Fat Elvis in late-age disappointing career & appearance ? & will the heat wave ever quit?!&$ Jeez, I can’t believe that the only rain I’ve experienced in almost 2mos. was at the Beau’s bud’s wedding - brutal. & even then MTL only saw a day of rain & ON saw nothin’….

Well, my thoughts’re drifting to they waysides…I’m not replying to e-mails at my old-school brisk pace & I do apologize, just getting my thoughts together, folks…Tho I think that with the heat I have exhausted masself with the blog & am just in hibernation mode until the smog & sweat passes. To quit or not to quit? I feel like I need to do a big shop for some closure, but without any goddamned SHIFTS I can’t even afford to shop there!! Oh well, only a couple of weeks left, then I’ll be up in the ‘Muskokas’ as the snooty Euro-trash-emulating tourists & cottagers so often incorrectly call my hometown-ish area. I’ll sign off for now & again apologize for not recounting much about the wedding….I don’t remember much so let’s just leave it at that, then?

peace
meegs

"People always say the children, pity the children. They haven’t lived, given birth, watched their friends die. I’m tired of the children."


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An odd time to do a blog entry - it’s after 12 - when I’m usually asleep these days…& I’m in front of the TV watching one of my fav movies of all time, Don McKellar’s ‘Last Night’. Chuckling at the brutally uncomfortable scene between his character & best friend about a certain…request. I have just finished a batch of oatmeal/raisin/swiss chocolate/almond cookies in our ancient oven to prepare for a long-ass car trip to Montreal demain apres midi pour le mariage d’un ami du Beau.
This movie absolutely enthralls me - & this will be the excuse for the unevenly baked cookies this weekend….like a carwreck, it’s impossible to turn away from it’s terrifying & anxious & captivating & grotesquely dark humour…If you haven’t already seen this movie (at least once…I won’t guess how many times I have watched it either on TV or my sketchy old taped VHS version) seek it out ASAP & revel in the timeliness of its message - remember that this was all made before GWB’s reign south of the border.
It is even more sickly perfect timing to view this flick on the heels of the G8 summit/Live 8/London tube tragedy. The Lord of the Flies-ish civic meltdown reported with faux sincerity by “Last Night”’s newscasters and the name-dropping of celebs that band together to appease the public on their dying day shows the spectrum of superficial distractions that we use to ‘understand’ our role in the world, the meaning of our life in it - from the large-scale public acts to weakness-exposing private performances (forgive the McLuhan disciple in me for indulging in the mask discourse).
In true Meghan fashion, when I actually met & chatted with Mr. McKellar himself at the SXSW “Child Star” American premiere, I turned into a blubbering moron & couldn’t convey how much his films, and especially this one, have meant to me. I managed to recoup after making stalker-esque observations and squirt out an inquiry about getting Twitch City’s seasons on DVD…to which he replied that it was in the works (good news, at least)…but for the most part, I was incapable of stepping outside myself as a loser-fan & speak intelligently about his body of work.
Anywhoo, enough philosophizing about fav movies & down to the nits & grits - the Beau is officially on the market - the job market, that is. He is taking a break from the grind of his academic project & I am relieved for the sake of his health & our cohabitation. Not that my poopy work sched (nights & weekends & on-calls, oh my) was making life super easy either. I had an embarassingly condescending talking-to from the shift manager yesterday, reprimanding me for taking so much time off of lates & not offering ‘open availability.’ The fact that I didn’t grovel for shreds of shifts or apologize for the time taken to show Toshi around, NXNE, weddings, family, life, etc completely shocked her. I calmly took what was essentially an ultimatum - give ‘full-availability’ or stop working immediately - & told her than in my almost 10 years of retail experience I had been doing similar scheduling & that I understand that my committments (which were far more important to me this summer than a part-time-ish job) weren’t making her job easier. Once she discovered that I was at a respectable & well-paying posish on the Park in the Fall, she suddenly wanted to keep me on staff, but warned me that my shifts would be reduced significantly…compared to what, I wondered…..It may be a blessing in disguise - I’ll stretch out the employee discount to its logical conclusion & celebrate the Beau’s year-long sabbatical with a modest summer repose either in the hometown, portaging/camping at a Prov. park, or finally tackle the Chicago trip we have been talking about for ages.
I have already fired off e-mails with the boss photos captured by Toshi on his Ontario tour - heads up in the spam filter. He is very dilligent at posting that stuff promptly! On that note, I’ll sign off & get to bed, “Last NIght”’s over, the chocolate buzz is wearing off & I need to squeeze in some gym time before we depart tomorrow pour la belle province….Je me souviens,
Meegs

Lord every year we gather here to eat around this table, Give us the strength to stomach as much as fast as we are able

Well, I guess after yesterday’s rant, I have some ’splainin’ to do. All this fam thinkin - probably brought on by the persence of an ‘outsider’ in the homestead - gave me some perspective. I have certainly missed a lot of these types of family occasions out of self-interest & self-righteousness & it should have been no surprise that it would’ve been a shock to my system to be immersed in the trails & tribulations of family politicin & religiousity.

Anywhoo - I usually follow the sage advice to avoid talking religion or politics at the dinner table….but now I worry that the lack of frank discourse in our family (extended - let’s get this straight, my pa took numerous Uni religion courses & my ma was super open about me reading up on spirituality & faiths from around the world….Tho nary an obligatory visit to a Church service was had in my childhood…unless you count friends-of-fam funerals & weddings….) is selling a young lady down the river or passivity & domesticity.

Truthfully, I am not the most articulate person when it comes to explaining the hows & whys of the universe & what I feel about the role of faith in a family. I will be the first to admit that without attending a Christian church service, I have nothing to honestly rail against….but from what I can tell, I’d rather have my daughters’ Sundays spent reading, riffing, running & ranting over current events rather than sifting through conveniently pulled & plugged Bible passages. For every Bible-beatin’ sheep that twists & turns Psalms to suit their hate-on for homosexuals, poor or different-faithed, I am sure that there is a humane and kind soul out there that simply finds solace in turning over some level of control to a higher power…& more power to these people that can find comfort in anything that doesn’t infrige on the happiness of others.

I have such mixed feelings about my extended family, they’re certainly not serial killers or embezellers or new-wave jazz artists, which is why I pulled the Louden lyrics for the post. Sometimes family stuff has such an urgency and tension when you overthink things. I am completely pre-occupied worrying whether my lil’ cus will get to step into the world of higher learning that is undoubtedly her calling. But at the same time, there is a grain of truth in that ‘family-values’ droning in that she is uber-tight with her kin and has a support system (which, depends entirely on her adherence to the norms of that church, tho) that most people don’t benefit from….which makes me wonder, we can’t truly seek out intellectual pursuits in a sheltered, comfy, spiritually-assured setting because many faith systems promise just that. In a garbled sense, I’m just hoping that she can somehow step out of her comfort zone, live alone, meet people that are un-likeminded and rebuild what is already a strong foundation of an intelligent young lady.

Anywhoo, I am getting all sentimental like & might wind myself up into kidnapping her a la Sally Field in a ‘Not Without My Daughter’ coup - dropping her off for binge drinking & philiosophising at an upcoming Frosh Week….At least the final verse of Wainwrights ‘Thanksgiving’ tune turns around the cynical (but truthful) opener:

I fall asleep I have a dream in it is the family
Nothing bad has happened yet and everyone is happy
Mother and father both still young, and naturally they love us
We’re all lying on a lawn at night watching the stars above us

Peace
Meegs

And while your head is spinning, hold tight it’s just beginning…

Wow. I am now just muddling through the aftermath of neglected inboxes & errand-overtaken life…so much for that ‘puropse-driven’ crap. Anywhoo, it has been a whirlwind of hosting & touristing & travel since last post.

Having Toshi here was great, tho quite exhausting living la vida visitor. I caught him nodding off occasionally, so I don’t feel like a total schmoe for admitting that I’m crazy tired. Needless to say, all this activity (Niagara Falls + on the Lake, CN Tower, Winery + Brewery tours, free Feist concerts, Queen’s Park, AGO, Downtown-abbreviated-UofT visit, Kensington, Chinatown, Island Queen 30,000 Island Cruise…& most oddly a family BBQ in the Sound)has left me scrounging for change in the couch & fessing up that the dream of having hi-speed & permanent home internet access is just that…a dream for this summer….as are the plans to tour abroad…just not finacially feasible with all the time off & provincial events going down related to relations & weddings, etc, etc. As Ray would say “I’m busted.”

But it was interesting seeing the city & province thru a foreign lens…I think that the visit brought out the teacher hats in retired Mo & Geo (& mine since TA’ing…that’s a stretch…& Luc, too…). I have certainly paid my dues in tourist-trap infernos of teen-to-twentysomething employment…bowing to the whims of Muskokan richies since I could earn a buck…It was a bit unsettling to be on the ‘dark side’ of the tourist industry. I felt the need to connect with the young workers on the front lines, commisserate with’em…sad…

My fam enjoyed the QT with Toshi & I was happy to introduce him to my long-time bossman, Doug & show him the (limited) sights of the town…By total kissmet, I ran into a PSHS bud, Ken, on the cruise & had some good catching up scoops to trade. My extended fam was at the BBQ & I rarely see them because of my Toronto-centrism &…how to say this tactfully…disagreement with certain belief systems and their effect on very, very bright & intelligent & capable young women…You know that saying, ‘Always a bridesmaid, never a bride’…well, for fam weddings that are what I perceive to be chattel trades, I modify it ‘Always flattered to be invited, never available.’ I just can’t bear witness to a ceremony that advocates submissiveness, patrichy & blind faith. Card with regrets.

Duty calls & I am running out of free (internet) time…I need to head’er to work ASAP & get my earn-on. More on the visit, Feist concert, local run-ins, travelling gals abroad, the chattel trade & how I would pray to any higher power to get my valedictorian cuz into non-Bovine University (which would undoubtedly be subsidized by deserved scholarships, etc.)…another time.

Peace
meegs